Well my degree year 2 sem 1 started last week. Can still enjoy myself as the first three weeks are going to be my honeymoon weeks. Uhm tbh I don't have much uni friends , so I usually follow my friend's timetable for every sem ever since we've met each other. BUT ! this sem is an exception :( we are in different tutorial classes for 3 subjects. and we now have different break time. For the first week which was last week , I was really nervous as I'm going to be all alone. Am actually worried that I will hardly get assignment groupmates. However I still managed to have quite okay groupmates yay ! *uhmmkayyy at least I'm satisfied with some of their attitudes*
After attending several classes alone , I've found out that being alone isn't that bad tho. At least I can walk faster *my friend walks really slow fyi* and without my friend's distraction , I can actually learn well. I'm not putting the blame on her but she really does distract me a bit even though she doesn't mean to do so. *I'm sorry* Being in different classes isn't our original intention but when I look it another way round , there are still interesting parts that I never realized. Looking forward to the following weeks and group assignments heh !
During my sembreak in May, I discovered my health is getting worse and my emotion is kinda unstable. Don't feel like talking about my health problem but my unstable emotion is definitely the biggest factor. I am easily frustrated and overly passionate on things that I supposed them to be the right things to do. Then my uncle told me "事不关己，己不怒心。气死自己没有人可怜你。" So I'm currently learning how to be calmer and cleverer. This doesn't mean that I should be selfish all the time, but at least I should learn how to protect myself. I used to not observe or analyze the problem before I act. This kinda brings harm to myself sometimes. Always regret after acting , that's me. My family , relatives and friends all have the conception of me being too dedicated on something. Not on the good side but bad side. I'm really sensitive and love to overthink. Sometimes when people's words don't mean that way, but I interpret it in a really negative way. I myself know this is not good, I can't help but just being emotional after overthinking.
nahhh I'm in a good mood today , don't wanna ruin my day. Let's talk about something happy. I'm currently watching "Problematic Man" which Rap Monster is the fixed guest of the show. Basically this show is all about IQ tests, problem solving and critical thinking skills. and here I proudly present Rap Monster aka NamJoonie with his glorious IQ 148 ! When he speaks English , GOD DAMN IT it is PORN PORN PORN !!! When he manages to answer those difficult questions which kill alot of brain cells , GOD DAMN IT he's genius mannnn !!! feel so good to stan a clever, creative, thoughtful and attractive man ♥
I've never been so into a song's lyrics until I saw bangtan's lyrics. I wonder how much circumstances had they came over to write those beautifully hurtful yet meaningful words. Every single lyrics written by them is so precious. For the very first time I ever have the feeling of "Good melody can touch your emotions and good lyrics can touch your soul." I have a habit of writing my favourite quotes / lyrics in my scrapbook. and now most of them are bangtan's lyrics / quotes. These boys have actually inspired me to be different. Especially rapmon and suga , both of them really inspire me alot. I see determination and passion in bangtan's eyes. Dare to be different , dare to discover the new you. This may take time but at least I am trying :)
Hope to keep up my hyper and good mood for the entire semester. and pray hard for a smooth and effortless semester * although I know this will never come true * Have faith, embrace pain and bring hope to everyone around you. Adios ~
I turned my eyes to the window and everything looks gray
Gray city, gray buildings, gray roads, gray rain
Everything in this world is slow
Rain - BTS
Throwing the ball by himself
What I’m shooting at the rim
Are my countless thoughts and worries
Intro : 화양연화 - BTS
You took away my stars at night, my sun at day
Only leaving me with the darkness of a single cold cloud
If there are hellos, then there’s bound to be goodbyes?
Let Me Know - BTS
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