31/3 - 26/5
53天，尝尽了各种酸甜苦辣。
53天，遇见了这生有缘遇见的朋友。
53天，试过了各种普通人尝试不了的新鲜事。
53天，与不同种族的朋友们共处一室。
53天，想念家里和家乡的食物。
53天，日子很难过却意外的挨过了。
基本上我身边的朋友都懂，从去年当我知道自己中NS时，我就已经非常抗拒去接受这个改变不了的事实。第一次check是不是batch 1的时候，我真的很紧张。因为大部分人都是中第一批的。而我的名字异常幸运的没出现在list里。我当下开心得不得了。因为我懂，不是第一批，去NS的机率不大了。结果，check第二批的时候，我完全没有心理准备的就输入了我的身份证号码。结果出来时，完全傻眼。
Kem Sentosa , Chenderiang , Tapah.
这下好了吧，当时是三月头，三月尾就是报到日期了。我当时完全控制不住情绪，崩溃了好久。过了几天，哭够了，冷静下来与父母商量。结果妈妈建议我进营，免得以后政府又要我回去当老兵。好吧，我接受现实，进营一个半月就好。
虽然有很多东西舍不得，但我努力说服自己，18岁了，是时候成长了。简单的收拾行李，我就这样进营了。当天的情况，只有两个字，
混乱
NS里有个朋友常说：刚进来时，就是你努力交朋友的时候。一直到后来，就是你开始淘汰和选朋友的时候。
没错，一开始我很积极的主动找人讲话。到后来认识了同个dorm的朋友，我们一起去领取兵服和鞋子。那时我对大家的印象都不深。一直到我们一边嚷嚷行李很重一边走斜坡回dorm时，我开始对大家有印象了。dorm里面已经有了第一天就报道的人，也有人陆陆续续在第三天到来。我刚到营地时，就傻眼了。为什么我的营不是平地而是斜坡？整个camp斜着上去的，把我吓得。。而且还在深山里，用的是山水，又阴森。
第一次不在家里过生日，而且还是人生中最重要的18岁生日。我埋怨了很久，可是最终结果还是一样的。我也不能强求什么，就只能默默的在心里流泪。第一天到那儿，才短短几个小时，我就打电话回家，说我不想留在这里了。反之，我父母一直安慰我，让我坚强一点。他们一直跟我说：
you're my hero girl. I love you.
你让我如何招架得住这样煽情的话？我以前没有想过离家那么长一段时间会是怎样的一个感觉。可是到了现在，我懂了。彻底懂了。
在营里最值得怀念的，就是与朋友一起活动的时候。我们日见夜见，感情好的不得了。完全不害臊的脱光光一起冲凉，不怕挤的一起睡同一张床，不害羞的在宿舍里直接换衣，不怕细菌感染的互吃对方口水，不懂生病该如何的就只能尽所能的照顾对方。
朋友们，我现在是真的很想念与你们一起的时光。毕竟我们都有53天的缘分。
比起其他地方的营地，我的营算得上很严格。我们的规矩很多，老师也很严格。所以我们最怕听到的，就是：被罚full loreng. 射击，高空滑翔，游泳课，障碍跑，操步，jungle tracking，种种的活动，不是一般人可以体会得到的。
我就这么浑浑噩噩的在里面度过了艰难的53天。出营后，大家见到我，就说我黑了结实了。我不晓得多年以后，我再次想起NS的生活，是哭还是笑。我只知道，我的18岁，与一般人不同。一开始的受苦，变成了接受，在演变成享受。
走的那天，我以为我不会哭，因为我不习惯在那么多人面前哭。
可是一个拥抱化解了我所有的底线。
一个拥抱就够了，不需要言语，我们就那样静静的抱着对方。
把脸埋在朋友的颈窝里小声哭泣。
至我最爱的朋友们，
你们是我生命中的朋友。
至我爱的chili man，
我想念你了。
至我的老师们，
你们辛苦了，照顾一班熊孩子。
至营地里的三只鹅，
你们操步比我们还齐。
至koperasi一家人，
老板老板娘谢谢你们。
还有最重要的，
至我的家人和朋友们，
谢谢你们大老远的来看我。
感谢爸爸每个礼拜风雨不改的从怡保驾车来我的营地看我。
感谢妈妈每个礼拜为我准备我需要的用品和食物。
感谢外婆即使很累也坚持要来看我这个外孙女。
感谢姐姐每个礼拜给我带来最新的消息。
感谢弟弟特地逃补习班来看我。
感谢朋友们拿一堆零食给我。
感谢我在营里的一切。
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| OMG look at the lake >.< |
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| flying fox is AWESOME ! |
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| dirtiest dorm ever. |
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| used to call home by using these telephone booth |
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| iron board and mirror |
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| F1 dorm. |
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so this is my not-so-comfy bed for the past 2 months.
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| this is where we hang our clothes. |
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| 其实这张照片没有意义了 |
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| 所谓的姐妹会 |
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| a BIG hug to my parents who had done alot for me. |
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| TBH I miss her. |
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| first time visiting my camp. |
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| first week lawatan keluarga. Alpha was in charged of performing duties. |
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| we are wirawati Alpha. |
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| GO ALPHA GO ALPHA ! |
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lovely grandma said I'm the first person in our family who entered NS.
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| 所谓的苦中作乐 |
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| marching practice before cuti sem. |
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| rubber tappers of Kem Sentosa , Chenderiang. |
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| new member in our gang , 阿吡 |
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| 朋友一生一起走，那些日子不再有 |
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originally 8.
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| camwhoring in the dorm during lawatan keluarga. |
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| peace out ;) |
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| my lovely BFFs visited me. |
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| first time petting a cat. |
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| this cat reminds me of 张小猫 |
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| Anna is a bad photographer. haha |
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friendship never ends.
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| early Wesak Day celebration |
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| finally got to eat some food cooked by chinese. |
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| 师兄 is the best ! |
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| sorry for what I did at the last lesson. |
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| my favourite Buddha class teacher. |
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| chilling and chatting in Bilik Rehat. |
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| someone is lying on the floor and texting like a boss. |
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| we rescued her from some kind of dangerous situation. |
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| the coolest place in the camp. |
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| nothing to do in the bus , then selca moment. |
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| ugly faces LOL |
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| All chinese girl in F1 |
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| she suddenly asked me to take photo with her. LOL |
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| LOL I'm taller than her. |
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| my CB class classmate , Yan :) |
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| crazy fellas. |
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| 散场的拥抱～～ |
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| with Shirleen. we came in on the same day. |
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| Alpha 的华人 |
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| I have the most selca with her. |
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our baju kelas should be worn like this.
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| was too bored at the outcamp buddha class. |
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| LOL spot the different skin tone. |
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| Fateh , Yeni , Fira and MEEE ~~ |
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| Malar , the one who sleeps beside me. my best Indian friend. |
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| Malar , me , Afikah and CheeHui. |
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| was waiting for CO. for 1 hour. |
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| Noona , my idol <3 |
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| crush. |
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| with Shafiq. Ketua Kompeni Alpha |
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| cutie pie :D |
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| candid shot by my friends. |
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| mehehehehehehehe ! |
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| the first picture I took with him. |
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| I love the way he lowers his body to match my height. |
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| the one and only selca with him <3 |
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| he wasn't looking at the camera. how cute |
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| with Hadi :) |
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| Vivian and I |
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| cry babies. |
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| this is actually not ours. we just borrowed it. |
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| FULL LORENG ! |
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| with Pei Yee |
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| he was tired. because it was only 6:15am |
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| she grabbed my boob in the pool. LOL Agong. |
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our luggage and bags.
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| look at our baju kelas |
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| singing the very last song together. |
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| wearing 2 baju kelas like a boss. |
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| posing like a boss. |
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| the very last photo we took together. |
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| 生命中的朋友 |
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| the best memory after all. |
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| so now I have pangkat. call me CO. |
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| this is how I spell FRIENDS. |
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| say goodbye to Kem Sentosa , Chenderiang. |
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| bumped into them at MCD. what a coincidence. |
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| Cikgu Hawa :D |
